reality

Sometimes I see things going on in the world around me, even on TV and it feels like that is life that I will never be a part of it. I don't really feel like that I am ever going to be a part of that, like I am on the outside looking in. Marriage, careers, kids, night out with the girls, night out with the guys. It just feels like that is something that I can't have. Whether I am keeping myself from it or I just can't quite get there, it is a surreal feeling. Sometimes I almost feel like a ghost. I suppose it doesn't help that I find that I am incredibly forgettable. I wonder when I will enter the world.

one year

One year ago I found out that my cousin Kyle had passed away. I would find out that he had passed away on the same day that my very special kitty Claudius had passed away. 5/3/10 And for a year my world changed. I got a new job, started working in a job where I had to hide who I am and who I love. I became lonely and depressed. I felt lost. I will make a change this year. I am turning 29 this year. I will not go through my entire 20s without stepping forward. This begins a year of writing and finding out who I am and who I will be. Who I am now; Kitty, also known by other names. In love with a freaky talented musical genius. Owner of a puppy and kitties. Awesome discount seller and manager at a bookstore. A non-college graduate. Massive book reader and manga fan. Stubborn and easily distracted, though overly competitive and determined when I am so moved. Sensitive on so many different levels to a creepy degree. Lets see what else I can find out and who I can become.